how people run to Facebook like its therapy. I just read a baby’s mama cry for help and that one of my friends is going through a terrible break. A lot of females talk hella bold on fb too, like the other day, I had read at least 4 threats on my news feeds. None of them were addressed to anyone specifically, but they were really angry like damn, I’m scared for whoever knows this is to them lol.. I’m sure I’m not saying anything new, its getting old and yes, this is one of the main reasons why I don’t mess with fb that much. I can’t be on for too long or else I get frustrated. This brings me to summer goal #1:Spend no more than an hr a day on social networks. It’ll be hard, I’m not even gonna lie because my phone and itouch has every app available for all the social networks I use, but I’m determined…. First step, delete them -__- sighhh its tough already. 

Summer is approaching. It’s the week of finals and I really don’t know why I’m choosing to write here instead of studying. I’m just really excited for this summer. So much money to be made and spent. Vegas, New York, Bay Area, LA, and whatever else comes. I’m ready!! kayyy, back to studying :) 

This is not to brag or anything, but I am the smartest in my family. Book wise at least. lol. That sounds so cocky but this is why I bring it up. I came home and told my dad and sister that I got a 40/50 on my last business calc test and they both looked at me crazy like I wasn’t supposed to be happy for myself. My dad says “well, that’s just a B” I immediately bit his head off for saying such a thing. I just took probably one of the hardest test I’ve taken in my whole school career and all they can give me is the “I expect better” look. smh. It really didn’t upset me that much, it just has me thinking. Have I really become that child my family expects to have straight A’s? or do they just want the best for me? 

why is it so hard to trust you? why do i feel hurt from you so easily? you tell me one thing but then I see and hear another. i want to believe you but i can’t. i’d rather have my gut feeling be wrong then to have my heart hurt like it did before. real shit.

I have to tell you about this girl I see ever tuesday and thursday at 8am during my afro-hist class. Baby is bad and she probably knows it. Toned brown skin. Bangin body, you know, curves in all the right places. Cute face. Nose pierced. Big curly hair. She’s a 9.2! to me at least lol. Her style makes her stand out that much more. California swagg but with a twist. Doesn’t demand attention, but gets it. Ladies and gentlemen I’m a lil’ infatuated by her. I wanna/gotta know her name.